When most people say things they wish their younger selves knew they talk about relationships, both platonic and otherwise. They talk about experiences and family. I have one message for my younger self, and that is LIVE, not just be alive. Everyone has tried to kill you with their words and their actions, you’re in a constant battle struggling to stay alive. Brick by brick I built this wall around myself, afraid to let anyone in. Unwilling to open myself up to the endless possibilities and beauty I have been destined for. I, like so many others am the cause of my unhappiness. I have built walls around myself willing to surrender to emotional isolation. I now see emotions as a hindrance and vulnerability a sign of weakness. So many people live this way, wrapped up inside our own minds using it as a safe haven.
Why have we become so willing to self-sabotage and destroy everything good that comes our way? Often times when something good is happening to us we sabotage it all in the defence of “I stopped it before it hurt me”. We concoct these stories in our heads of imminent pain and heartbreak that we never really allow ourselves to experience love in all its forms. The love of ourselves, love in our friendships, love in the universe and its abundant power. I often ask myself, why do I continue on this path of self-destruction? I realise I am not alone, all around me I see people so desperate to stay in control, clinging on to fragments of their broken pasts, losing hope and destroying anything that could love them.
It’s time to live and not just be alive. I have been so afraid to live, afraid to venture out and experience life in its’ beauty. It’s time for me to break down those walls I built and be an active writer in my life story. Let’s all stop destroying our happiness and let go of the control which holds us back. Let us see the beauty within and tap into the power we have to create the lives we want. It’s time for us to heal our wounds, and prepare ourselves for a new adventure. It’s time to LIVE and not just be alive.
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